I don’t think I’ll ever forget last night.

I had a fairly rough day at work yesterday. When 5 pm hit, I was out the door in a flash. Traffic coming home sucked and I’m pretty sure if there was a red light on my route anywhere I found it.

To top it off when I got home and unlocked the back door, our alarm system went off. Husband had set it and forgotten to turn it off. The siren on this freaking thing is L-O-U-D. Anytime it goes off, so does Ava. Wet, snotty, sob-filled crying. So instead of… Continue reading →

I have mommy guilt.

Guilt because I want time to myself, time off from being a mommy, but I look at that precious face and I can’t walk away.

I leave her too much as it is. I work full time, and Monday to Thursday she stays with Grandma. Fridays my husband works from home and keeps her there.

Every morning I kiss that sweet face and walk away. Actually, I do it twice a day, once in the morning and again at lunchtime, which I spend with her. She’s a happy girl, she loves being with Grandma. I know… Continue reading →

I watched the premiere of Jon & Kate + 8 last night. I don’t know what I expected to see, but whatever it was, it wasn’t what I saw.

I’ve been a sporadic viewer of the show, never a faithful watcher, and a lot of that has to do with the fact that I’ve never cared for Kate very much. I thought she was self centered, controlling, mean spirited, and yes, a bitch. I used to think, poor Jon, how does he put up with her?

What I saw last night was a Kate that is human and vulnerable. A… Continue reading →

I’ve toyed with the idea of blogging for a long time. I even created a food blog a couple years ago, but after about 3 posts, life intervened and it was pretty much abandoned.

But twenty-one months ago I found out I was going to be a mom. It was a Monday. It was September. I was alone, in my mother-in-law’s house, taking a pregnancy test. The digital one, you know, the one that reads, in clear, easy to understand even for an idiot “PREGNANT”. I stood there, waiting, not sure what I really wanted the answer to be. But… Continue reading →