Maybe Tomorrow
It’s been rather quiet here as of late. In all honesty, it may continue that way for a while.
I’m just not feeling the writing these days. Words are exhausting. I wish I could give you an exact reason. The truth is, I’m not sure myself. I have so many thoughts and ideas in my head. Things I want to write about. Things I don’t want to write about. I can’t make myself put it in written form. Maybe tomorrow.
I’m worried. About myself. About Ava. My job. Darin’s job. Pick something and I have a fear.
I lurk on Twitter, but I don’t have the heart to post much. I feel the need to remain in the shadows. Maybe tomorrow.
I owe several friends emails, but I haven’t had the energy to put forth anything of any substance.
This? Is me. This is why friends end up giving up on me after a while. The silence. I see it. I want to change it. I see the emails in my inbox. I hit reply. And then I stare at the blank screen. Trying to find words. Failing to find words. I close out the window. Maybe tomorrow.
I’m here. I’m trying. I just don’t feel like I have much to give right now. Maybe tomorrow.
<3
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Hey sweetie, I won’t give up on you, if you won’t give up on me. I have the same problem. I lurk. I open and close twitter. I write facebook status updates that I delete, because I get tired of worrying everyone. I write posts that make no sense, because what I want to say, I can’t find words for. I check, mark all as read, in my reader, because it gets too big. I sit and write and re-write a comment and then finally delete and leave, because nothing I say sounds okay to me. (Which I’m feeling the urge to do now…but won’t, because it’s you and I love you.)
Yesterday, I couldn’t even open my computer. I think about you all the time. It’s hard to follow thru right now. It’s hard enough to make it through each day. But I adore you.
It’s okay. It’s okay to be quiet. It’s okay to need time and space. The thoughts in your head need time to settle. Just as mine do. Just know, our friends? They are awesome. And very forgiving for long absences. And they love you. And I love you.
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Avasmommy Reply:
January 20th, 2010 at 12:10 pm
I could never give up on you. Thank you. xoxo
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Jenna…
You don’t have think twice about whether or not I’d give up on you. We’re a lot alike. I’ve lost count of the number of people who’ve given up on me because I can go days/weeks/months without talking to them & they get tired of waiting around.
When you’re here, I’m here, ready to listen.
<3
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I won’t give up on you. Take you time. If you aren’t feeling it then stay in the shadows, we’ll still be here when you are ready to return to the spotlight.
Love and hugs.
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It ebbs and flows. I know this feeling well. But im not giving up on you!
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I am the same way – like a turtle, I retreat.
I can’t tell you how many friends I have lost, or fought with, because they take it personally.
It’s ok to just be, to just take one moment and one day at a time. If you feel like it tomorrow? We are beyond thrilled to have you. If you don’t? Well, we are thinking about you, but not giving up. Never giving up.
xoxo
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I’m like that a lot of the time too. I lurk around in the shadows. I need my down time … I just kind of withdraw from everyone for awhile. A lot of people don’t understand, take it personally or walk away. It’s kind of nice to read I’m not the only one.
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Oh sweet friend, you will never be left alone. Weather you write or not, take the
time for yourself. Those that really care, are real friends will be waiting with open arms and computer screens. Keeping you in my thoughts.
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You take as much time as you need. Today, tomorrow, in a week…we will all still be here for you! Hope things get better. Miss ya!
XOXO
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well i have not given up…i’ve been @’ing you on twitter…just making sure you’re ok. you got me worried. xo
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I can’t really remember but don’t you live in Oregon? I just heard something about Oregon. Something about the largest organism being a mushroom that is bigger than 3 or 4 (more?) football fields large. Just wondering if you ever pass by, if you could take a photo. Just post a photo….no words in that. Can be as silent as you want.
((Hugs))
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Dude. I will never give up on you. I was so sad when I thought I lost you the first time. I NEVER stopped thinking about you. I think about you, almost stalkerishly everyday. I am here when you wanna drop me a line or not. I understand b/c I get the same way. I still blow up people’s twitter streams b/c I am addicted to it like crack right now. But I totally understand what you are talking about and how you feel. I do it too.
Anyway, I will be here. I will wait. me love you long time.
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Oh honey, I have felt the very way you just described. I know I probably haven’t been the best friend you have ever had but I do care about ya. <3 and hugs to you.
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