New Attitude
Perhaps smack in the middle of a very unpleasant cold is not the best place to be making decisions, but nobody ever said I was the sharpest knife in the drawer.
But something clicked in me this morning.
I need to bump the negative out of my life. The sour grapes. The whiners. The complainers. The chronic malcontents, who, no matter what are always determined to find the dark side of everything.
I’m not saying life is all sunshine and rainbows. I know it’s not. I’ve done my fair share of twitter bitching, for sure. But you ever notice that… Continue reading
This town
This town is flags hung from front porches.
This town is manicured lawns neighboring tall grasses and unkempt flower beds.
This town is church bells ringing out on Sunday mornings, softly interrupting the silence.
This town is friendly cashiers, saying they missed you when you didn’t stop in for your daily soda run.
This town is old homes and tree lined streets.
This town is big pickup trucks and motorcycles parked on lawns.
This town is downtown deserted by 9 pm.
This town is big Sunday breakfasts and quiet Sunday nights.
This town is picnics in the park and classic… Continue reading
Imagine
Imagine a world in which your children only were tucked into beds under your roof two weeks out of every month.
Imagine a world in which mornings did not always include a sweet sleepy face saying “Good morning Mommy”.
Imagine a world, in which your baby did, said and tried new things for the first time and you hear about it afterwards.
Imagine not being able to see or touch the soft hair of the person you gave birth to, because the court says it’s not your day.
Imagine walking out of a house, hearing your child screaming for you,… Continue reading
Not a step back, but maybe to the side
It’s no secret around here that I struggle with self esteem issues. I have for 38 years. I’ve made some remarkable strides in dealing with those. Life’s circumstances have me facing the world on my own, and a new-found self confidence has been emerging.
However, it’s fragile. Tentative. Which almost seems like an oxymoron, but that’s what happens when you feel inadequate and just LESS than for your entire life. Changes don’t happen overnight and for someone who struggled for so long, it’s not hard to experience something that will knock me back a step.
I’ve been learning how to… Continue reading
In Which I Become one of THOSE Bloggers
I normally don’t enter contests very much…
1. I just have very little faith that most of the contest holders are legitimate. You know the ones I’m talking about. These shady fly by night dot coms that swear you’ll win an ipad, a new TV, a European vacation…..just tweet, and retweet and retweet….and nobody ever wins.
2. I’m not what you’d call a lucky person. I go to Vegas and breaking even for me is considered a huge accomplishment. I’m the chicken that cashes out after I win $20.
But today, a blogger I trust is holding… Continue reading
A Letter to a Smart Kid
I wish I could tell you that your life will always be easy. I wish I could tell you that your brains will always open doors for you and help you make the right decisions. I wish you could hear me now and change things. Change things so that the you of 20 plus years later doesn’t feel the need to write this letter.
You’re a smart kid. You always have been. You knew it when you could read, and read well at four and your parents lauded this to anyone who would listen. You knew it when your teacher… Continue reading
Waffle Waffle Waffle
I’ll admit it. I can be a waffler. I make decisions when I’m feeling emotional, and then I come to regret them later when I’m not knee deep in the throes of a pity party.
Taking this site private was not an easy decision to make. I knew what it involved and how difficult it would be for me.
In the end, it is more difficult than I imagined it would be.
So.
Having thought about it for a couple of weeks now, here’s what I’ve decided to do. I know – you’re on the edge of your seat, holding… Continue reading
GTT Was Hacked, So I Took This Opportunity To Bitch Instead
I was planning to participate in Girl Talk Thursday this week, but it seems that the site has been hit by the Word Press Apocolypse that’s going on so, instead I bring you this random collection of rants.
It’s been almost a week since I’ve posted here. I’m having a hard time coming up with things to say.
Actually, that’s bullshit. I have lots to say, I’ve just been too lazy to deal with it. I wanted to write a birthday posts for Issa and Liz, but I never managed to get it done. Hell, I barely got their birthday… Continue reading
I Left High School But It Never Left Me
High school when you are poor and overweight is not fun. High school when you are poor, overweight and painfully shy? Torture.
It’s always been hard for me to be in social situations with people I’m not familiar. Especially after having spent so many years of the company of people I did know who were less than subtle about keeping their distance from me. Heaven forbid one of the popular kids be seen walking down the hall with me. Or talking to me. Or sitting next to me at lunch. I wasn’t one of those kids. I didn’t fit in… Continue reading
How To Drive Me Crazy
Issa posted yesterday about things she hates. I jokingly stated that I should write a list like that, but I was afraid if I started, I might never stop.
However, it being Friday, and sunny outside, I don’t feel like writing anything serious or deep today.
So without further ado, here’s a list of a few of the things I especially dislike. Hopefully, I won’t have to start another blog just to contain it all. 
Websites with videos that automatically start. Some of us are trying to stealthily surf the net (OMG, that sounds SO 90′s) from work, yo. How… Continue reading
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